Friday, December 18, 2009

Get off the roof... the roof... the roof is on fire.

So I'm posting ahead of schedule... I still have two finals to go. History in 4 hours and Chemistry in 10. It's 4:23 am EST right now. My laundry's in the dryers downstairs, 53 minutes to go... tick tock... It's been so long since I've written anything meaningful. I'm not taking a writing class this semester (although I am regretting that decision now), and the papers that I write for Theology are full of mindless psychobabble that I pump out an hour before class. Thus, such work is invalid in my eyes. When I say writing something meaningful, I mean sitting there and delving into your mind, your heart, and your soul in order to find those elements that would make that something perfect -- in your eyes and your reader's eyes.

Even as I sit here and I type out my thoughts, I find that my ability to articulate what I'm thinking is severely diminished. Have you ever tried to talk while holding your tongue? That's what this feels like. "Hold your tongue and say apple" anyone? Regardless, I've decided that this is bad. This is bad because I have to write two timed papers in two hours for my History final in 4 hours. Oh boy. Not nice. Seriously, I've lost the ability to write under pressure. I feel like I'm in grade school again. Geez. I feel stupid. Retarded. I need to refocus and find that ability again. This is awful. To say the least.

Anyway, it is time for me to go back to my stack of Chemistry review material. Expect more posts more often now. After all, practice makes perfect right?

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